The beauty of opinion is that i don’t have to agree with the negative and dark things my coworkers have to say about our kiddos. It kills me to see so many of them so burnt out, so checked out, completely given up on hope and at a loss for compassion. But it spurs me on. Our kids need HOPE. They need the few of us willing enough to FIGHT to support them, to continually help them back up with open arms when they screw up. They need people who acknowledge that we all screw up…EVERYDAY. that we are no better than these lost children. I’ve been so compelled by watching painfully how my coworkers talk, think and approach the kids, the ones who are harder to love and hard to encourage, the ones who are consistently falling flat on their face no matter how much we pour into them. But who are we to give up? Who am i to say “That one’s a lost cause.” They each have as much of a chance as the next one, and my support, or lack thereof, could be that last little bit to tip the balance, whether it be in their favor or against them.
I’m at a loss for words when it comes to the lack of compassion in some of my fellow staff. Granted, i know i’ve only been there for three months, but as much of a struggle as those three months have been, they have been full of insurmountable blessings which over shadow all the failings and missteps. i LOVE my job. Watch me share that with many of my coworkers and their jaws drop…even those who’ve been there just as briefly if not less longer than I.
I wish i could create an army of people fully prepared (whatever that means) for this calling, I pray for encouragement and support for my coworkers, that the Lord could grant them the same compassion for the kids as he has given me. I have God’s heart for these children. Does that mean i’m amazing at my job? No. not at all. Somedays i SUCK at it. Somedays its a struggle and i have to remind myself of the love God has for them and pray that it be renewed in me. But the days when i get to see progress, growth, when i get to pray over a child, when i see them glory in their giant leaps or little steps toward success, those are the days which make it all worth it, those days make my job a treasure to behold. I feel so very Blessed to feel like i belong here, to know that God has placed me in the very right place. I pray for more people spurred on by the Lord to walk through those doors with unfailing courage, strength, hope and love…that which comes ONLY from the Lord. My God is big, grand BEAUTIFUL. and He WILL deliver.
Jesus, send them. We need your aide.